Few months ago a person whom
I called a dear friend of mine said, “I love the war between you and your pen.”
But today this friend isn’t here because that person decided to get me out of
their way and proceed without me so I dedicate this piece that’s written by my
pen to that friend whom I no longer care about.
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Few months ago I met a great
friend and I thought this friend would be the answer to every question in my
life (yes, I had a teenager fantasy. Do not laugh.) But what wasn’t so “teen”
of that person is that this person neglected me for something I had nothing to
do with it.
I got neglected for being
myself, for holding my pen writing what I like and what I don’t like, for
talking to everyone without setting boundaries because I think the first step
to learning is communication, for reaching out to everyone because I love to be
there for people even if I don’t know them. I got neglected for being myself
and I got shouted at saying,
“You’re not behaving well.”
“You have to grow up.”
“You should be more
responsible.”
“I’m sick of your attitude.”
At first I accepted those
insults and other insults, and I apologized.. I apologized for being myself
because I thought that I’m not a flawless person, I make mistakes and I have to
admit them but after a while this person didn’t stop; all I got was more
insults and I got disguised from myself, I thought I’m a horrible person!
That changed when I had a
talk with the miracle worker and my angel (Afra and Shahd) they didn’t realize
that I was seeking for a solution, an answer that helps me but I got it! I
should not apologize for being myself because being myself is all I got. Let
people neglect me, it’s alright.
The purpose of writing this
is to show you and teach you if I can. This world doesn’t revolve around a
certain person, this world is not about getting accepted by a person or a group
of people, it’s about accepting yourself the way you are. You might be young or
old but this scenario keeps on repeating. We try our best to fight for the ones
we love to stay in our life but we should know that if that person isn’t making
the effort.. well, we should let them know that they are more than welcomed to
leave the door they came from. No more fights and no more staying up all night;
if they don’t like you it’s fine because you don’t need someone who stops you
from being you.
DON’T give anyone a chance to
bring you down and enjoy this life because it’s so damn good! Take a deep
breath and care less because sometimes people and circumstances will turn
against you if you thought about it a lot.
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