22-03
That’s when it started, it is sad how
recall every single memory. It never left me no, whenever my heartaches I close
my eyes and allow the flashbacks to flow. I thought I was crazy back then but
right now I’m feeling my sanity.. I did the right thing and I chose the right
one but only if it lasted much longer.
It was cloudy yet sunny day, the weather
couldn’t decide whether to be warm or cold, just like my heart right now.. We
were in the car, back from school. As usual I sit in the front seat and my
cousin Mahra sits back, I was going through my BBM chats but suddenly my face
almost hit the front window. The driver hit the car in front of us. I saw a
lady walk out of the car and she looked so frustrated! Mahra gasped and said,
“Mohammed, that’s Aisha’s mom!”
“Who is Aisha?” I asked.
“She is my friend.” Mahra said.
Aisha walked out of the car, and this time
it was my moment to gasp. I gasped because she is the prettiest girl my eyes
had ever seen, It was love, I knew it; but back then I kicked that thought out
because I didn’t want to sound like a typical childish teenage local. Aisha had
a tanned skin and beautiful dark wide eyes. I stared at her for half a minute I
guess, she’s prettier than princess Jasmine from Aladdin.. at the same day, I
went to Mahra and asked her about Aisha, “Do you know this girl? The one we hit
her car today?” Mahra laughed, “That’s creepy, and I told you she’s my friend.”
I pretended that I’m not interested at all but since that day I couldn’t stop
thinking about her.
Two months later, I overheard Mahra that
Aisha’s birthday will be next week and I thought this is my chance to let her
know about my true feelings. Mahra thought that I’m stupid but I didn’t care, I
knew I couldn’t attend so I went and bought a cake and some flowers.. Later
Mahra sent me a picture of their mini surprise party and few minutes after that
Aisha texted me, that was our beginning. We stayed up all night texting each
other. You might think yeah, typical local guy texting a random pretty girl but
I swear she is different. I’m not that guy who used to text teenagers and asks
them for their phone numbers or pictures. Days and months passed by and it
proved that my Aisha is the one. My Aisha had been there for me all the time
just like how fairytales worked, we were together during happy and sad days.
Our graduation day was close, I kept
saying that I won’t get to see her so I don’t raise my expectations then get
shocked when it hits the floor but at the same I found myself saying, “If I
didn’t see her on the graduation day, I might not see her ever again.” I had to
think of a way that might help, so I went to my mother and told her about the
whole thing and I asked her to go and knock their door but like every mother; she
laughed and said, “You’re still a kid!” I went to my sisters so they convince
my mother but still I got the same response, “Get your bachelor degree and
we’ll be right in front of her door.” I had to give up and just wait. However,
I never thought about talking to her on the phone because I love her so much
and my love wants to protect her rather than satisfying my desires. At our
graduation, everyone on stage was looking at their folks and friends and trying
to spot them but I was busy trying to peak at her and her gorgeous eyes, I
didn’t want this day to end.. Sadly it did but I decided to tell her about what
my parents said, “Wait for me.. I’ll be there the moment I graduate.” She
texted me, and my heart almost got out of my chest because of the text, “I’ll
wait for you.”
Two years, we never stopped texting each
other.. She’s my cousin’s best friend, she got to know my cousins more and even
my sisters knew everything about her and how much I love her. During this time,
we did all the great cheesy things.. Watching movies and criticizing them all
night long, romantic movies were her favorite, man I hated them so much but I’d
watch it for my princess.
We had our ups and downs, lot of fights
but later on we’d laugh about them. She’s the best thing that I got to know,
she always reminded me to pray, how to face difficult situations, sticking by
when conditions got worse and never got bored of me, she kept loving me and my
love grew for her. It bothered me when someone talked to her mother about
marrying my Aisha but she stayed faithful and I remember she told me once,
“Someone proposed.”
And I asked her, “and your response our
beloved bride?”
She laughed, “OF COURSE NO!”
I told her once, “If you married him, ya
wailch! (I’m warning you)”
…
One day she texted me,
A: “Will we be together?”
“Insha’allah.”
A: “No, I want to know how long will I
wait?”
“God, I’m still studying.. Why are you
talking about this thing?”
A: “I said no to lot of people don’t you
understand?”
“I told you I’m studying, I can’t for
now.”
A: “Then sweetie let’s stop talking and
when you’re done, you’ll know where to find me.”
“But I love you!”
A: “You’ll find me someday.”
I lover her.. and since that day my life
had been miserable because I keep thinking about her, I really don’t know if
she knows about how much I love her and I really need her! More than anything,
my heart is heavy when I wake because I know that every day won’t be the same..
Aisha I’m writing so you can see what
you’re ignoring and I’m asking you, how can you be stronger than me? The
memories don’t bite you at night? Aren’t you missing me? I’m lost and every day
my heart is getting ripped into million pieces! What if someone else had you
before me? Will you leave me behind on the shelves of the past? Bu I don’t want
to be gone, I want to be here with you and by you, I can’t live right. I don’t
want to be the one left behind.
I love you, each and every day; reach out
and make me feel safe once again.. it’s 22 O’Three please have mercy on me.
_____
Hope and Love
Maitha the Parrot
