From Beautiful To More Beautiful

Thursday morning isn’t the same without you. Everything isn’t the same without you that’s why I haven’t slept in the past two days.

I wish you were here

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For the past month my mornings looked like a classic Hollywood movie. I wake up open the curtains to let the morning rays fill my room, I open the window and let the cold breeze tickles every fabric in the room. It looked perfect for anyone who walked in and watched how the morning rays and cold air filled the atmosphere. I felt perfect because at that time I didn’t have to move on.

Missing someone gives me chills in my bones, especially when that someone took lot of space in my life, every single detail of my life! 

We’ve seen it in the movies, heard it through songs and read it in books .. “Moving on”, not only moving on and forgetting a human but also other things,

  

Moving on and leaving your hometown behind.

Moving on and leaving your school behind.

Moving on and leaving your favorite job behind.

Mainly moving on requires gathering sweet and sad memories and tossing it behind your back. It is painful cause knowing that “beautiful” isn’t here anymore; but I strongly believe that there’s something “more beautiful” waiting ahead, you know why? Because god takes something good to offer you with something better! There’s a catch though..

((YOU HAVE TO WAIT))

This week I had to let go of something precious, no one had any idea about how much this thing meant to me. Especially when it’s a human who was a part of my daily life.

I was selfish and aggressive because I shut that person out of every place.. My mind, my life, my heart, my words, basically everything! I forgot everything beautiful about that person.

Smile.. Laughter.. Jokes.. Attitude.. Smartness.. EVERYTHING! I collected the beauty and placed it under the category of hate. I hated everything related to that person.

Today I asked myself .. what’s the hate for? Is it worth it?

I discussed this part with one of my friends and she told me “you’re grateful for having beautiful memories right?” to be honest for a moment I was hypnotized by the flashbacks and when I came back to reality I answered her “yes. I’m grateful”

I am grateful cause that person sense of humor stopped me from worrying a lot. I am grateful cause I learned a lot from that person. I am grateful cause that person guided me to the new me. I am grateful cause that person was a part of my life.

That’s why I decided to move on and replace the hate with gratefulness because at the end I knew something “beautiful” and I’m ready to wait for the “more beautiful” thing and I don’t care how long will that take.

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To that person:

“When violet eyes get brighter

And heavy wings grow lighter

I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew

But I swear I won't forget you

Oh if my voice could reach back through the past

I'd whisper in your ear:

"Oh darling I wish you were here"”

Thank you for being a great friend.

Hope and Love

Maitha the Parrot