Reckless

Some of us have to grow up before the perfect time, not because we want to but circumstances force us to. It’s not a joyful thing cause at some point we want to enjoy being young and careless. Not careless as I’ll do the all wrong kind of things and never care about the consequences but more like I won’t care about what people think. I’ve discussed this topic once with one of my closet friends Shahd; her point was that it’s good when a part of you grow up to take the responsibility of every action but at the same time you should keep a small part of the “child” you. I agreed with her but lately it seems that I lost the “child” part of me it’s because of the tension and obstacles that life thrown on me lately.

Yesterday I met new friends most of them go to universities in Washington D.C and Virginia. They asked me to hang out with them today and because of their sweetness and kindness I couldn’t say no. To be true I don’t know those girls very well but I do know that they’re nice.

We decided to go to a mall in Virginia, when I walked into the taxicab I promised myself that I’ll forget everything happened earlier, EVERYTHING! I decided that the child in me would rise above today because I missed that part of me.

I got attached to one of the girls, she’s Kuwaiti her name is Nessma, she’s 20 years old with the most gorgeous smile and the most beautiful spirit I’ve ever seen. She talked to me about her life and how hard was it to move form her country to the USA. Her maturity left me speechless but when we entered the mall the serious Nessma somehow was gone with the cold wind. I saw how she walked and talked; it was 100% different from the girl that sat next to me in the car. She forced me to be like her! Reckless but not the misbehaving reckless kind of person; I saw how the reckless her threw everything behind her.. university, feelings, tension and everything else! I was there shocked but then I was like if she can do it, I can do it. I forgot that tomorrow I’ll wake up and go to the hospital or I’ll have to stay up late because of the coldness or to think about the dishes that I’ll wash tomorrow morning. I forgot it, forgot it ALL! Even I forgot about the existence of some people. (Egotistic.. a bit)

I met new people, shopped without second thoughts, ran with Nessma and the others at the mall and we did lot of senseless things! Surprisingly we didn’t care about what people think and what was more surprising that neither the people cared about what we did; actually that made me think.. Most of the time we think about what others would think if we did a certain thing when they might not think about it! Funny isn’t it? We care about something that doesn’t exist.

While we were walking I heard a voice from behind “What purse did you get?” I thought she was on the phone but then I realized that she was talking to Nessma and me. We had two LV bags so the African lady. She wore a black coat with a purple scarf rapped around her neck. Nessma told her “We got the classic one” that’s it but the African lady said “OH! I got the (she said something Nessma and I didn’t understand) purse though I wanted (another thing Nessma and I didn’t understand) so I’ll save money so I can get it next time but you two ladies got something, nice to meet you two and HAPPY HOLIDAYS!” and then she walked away. Me and everyone else who was with me started laughing because we had NO idea about what she was talking but it was nice of her to talk to bunch of weirdoes.

Today I laughed a lot, the kind of laugh that made the pain go away. I felt writing all of that because I wanted to share that life isn’t about being the grown up all the time, it’s not about being serious all the time but it’s about living every moment with the right emotions.

This article seems like babble when I read it back, but I swear that those words can’t express how happy and grateful I am to experience today. Nessma and the others made me realize that I’m not living my life right and they proved my friend Shahd right cause she told me that she can see the child within me and today I found that child; That sweet reckless child..

Till I find another adventure.. 

Hope and Love 

Maitha the Parrot