The Sun Will Rise

Humans are the only creatures in the world that got the ability to make clear choices. It's a blessing that can be hurtful sometimes; but as any creature sometimes nature forces things into our lives. 

Lately I had to face my worst nightmare. It's a thing that I saw in my nightmares only (literally) but since a week this nightmare find its way to my life. This unfortunate event flipped my life. I couldn’t find anything positive at all. My family and friends asked me to stay strong but I had no reason to stay strong because everything was a mess. The only thing that made me go on was "It's a faith test. God loves you just like your mum, HOLD ON." 

I started to blame a certain person because I thought that this person is behind all of that utter pain but then I thought about it, that person got nothing to do with it. What happened wasn’t in anyone's hand.. Faith test! 

For the past week I refused to go out or interact with people. My parents forced me to hangout with them and my friends, just to clear my head.

Today, at the early morning I had this mysterious energy for no reason. I checked outside through my room's window, the sun was trying to send rays of warmth through the clouds. I decided to wear a sweater and sandals, I was so excited to go out that I didn’t want to waste time wearing my boots.

There were two doors I had to go through so I can go out, I went through the first one and when the second one opened the cold wind made its way to my lungs and froze them; at that moment I regretted not wearing my boots because my toes became cold as ice. I went to the closest grocery store to buy chocolate dough (I was craving brownies). When I came back home something changed and I got that negative vibe again. Everyone went out and left me because as usual I refused to join.

This time I felt really lonely so I decided to bake so I don’t give my brain a chance to over think. I MADE BROWNIES! By the way I don’t cook so brownies sounded like Machboos to me. When I baked, I wanted to share the brownies for unknown reason but I thought that it'll be fun.

I went out and shared some of the brownies with our Emirati, Kuwaiti and Saudi neighbors. Then I went to the lobby, I saw Karmen (she's the manager of the hotel) I gave her the plate of brownies. I saw her sharing it with the rest of the staff, I waved at them. Then Karmen came and asked "Is there an occasion?" I answered her "Yes, to make everyone smile." She hugged me and went; but I stood there for a moment, I stood because I was surprised by my answer; I realized for the past week I've let everyone down and I gave negative frequency a pass to control my life, when my happiness and joy were between those people.. Their smile made me smile.

I decided to drop the weight of sadness off my mind, I decide to move the thorns out of my sight, I decided to let my knuckles to rest from this fight, I decided to move the broken glass underneath my feet..

You know why?

Because the sun will rise tomorrow and when it rises, new dreams will be born, faith will be restored, hope will be refreshed and I'll live.. I'll live not as a survival but more like a hero. I want my siblings to look at me and say our sister is a fighter.

Today I learned that humans were created for two reasons: To work for the judgment day and to spread love because we're made out of love..

I'll live for the sake of love. I'm not sad or miserable anymore, I'm back to the positive me, thanks to the brownies.

Hope and Love

Maitha the Parrot