Little One

My posts are mostly about the people around me or myself because what’s around inspires me but lately I couldn’t find that key. I hold my pen but I end up writing fragments of my mind only.

I keep on writing and saying about how much I miss home and everything related to it; these feelings are giving me hard times, I can’t clear my mind because of it and I keep on suffering to find words to put them in a proper sentence.

But today is different; I woke up to see lot of bags lying on my room’s floor like defeated soldiers and I know that’s a hint from colonel Mum saying “RATBEEE!” I took a look at the bags’ contents. New shoes, new shirts, new pants and other new things but there’s one new thing that caught my attention, something that I didn’t get used to buying it but I think I should get used to it; it’s a grey tiny onesie with “Auntie’s Little Man” written on it. I remember that I bought it for my unborn baby nephew. I also remember my brother-in-law’s words when he informed me, my tears of happiness, my father’s voice and mum’s laughter. I folded that onesie and here I am holding my pen, writing for that beautiful thing that’s hiding behind a bump..

“Dear little one,

You’re probably sleeping, hugged by your mommy’s warm body and you probably don’t know what’s waiting for you but don’t be scared because I don’t know too, though I wish I knew so I can protect you from the things that will make you cry; your mommy, daddy, grandpa, grandma, uncles and I will ALWAYS be here for you so fear nothing love. I know that you’re too tiny and helpless but I promise you that I’ll always be here for you little guy!

You won’t believe it but I can see your smile while you’re playing with me, you’ll have your mother’s beautiful smile and you’ll make me feel safe cause her smile makes me feel safe too.

Though your eyes are still closed, I promise you that I’ll be here when you open those pretty eyes. And when those eyes can’t go to sleep, I’m going to be there too cause you’re my one and only, I’ll let you lay beside me, play with me, dream with me, hold my thumb with your tiny hands and hold me tight.

I promise you that I won’t let anyone make any plans for you, I’ll let everyone leave it to you and I won’t let anyone interfere or let you down honey. You can dream, you can be anything you want to be. You’re going to be our tiny caterpillar, you might wonder who you’re going to be and I know that you’ll be waiting for the day where you get your own wings. For now you can’t go to anywhere but you have the right to dream and I promise you there will come a day where you get to fly away. You’ll soar on your own but we’ll always be down there holding our hands up in case you tripped and fell.

You’ll add a new chapter to our lives, lot of hopes and dreams are associated with you; I promised you lot of things but now you have to promise me!

Promise me that you’ll smile from your heart.

Promise me that you’ll make your mum and dad proud of you.

Promise me that you’ll be a good boy.

Promise me that you’ll be there for me and you won’t leave my side no matter what.

Promise me that you’ll treat girls nicely.

Promise me that you’ll chase your dreams.

Promise me that you won’t grow up fast.

Promise me that you’ll pray all the time.

Promise me that you’ll stay true to who you are.

Promise me that you’ll love me even when I shout at you.

Promise me that you’ll take care of your mum, she’s precious and I love her more than I love myself.

Sugar you’ll make lot of mistakes no one expects you to be flawless and your mistakes won’t make me love you less, in fact I’ll be there to pick you up when you fall down.  You can always come to me to keep you warm and I’ll always be there to protect you from any kind of storm. I want you to know that I’m saving every kind of love for you honey.

But till you walk into my world..

I love you,

Your auntie.”



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Hope and Love
Maitha the Parrot